Doing it for the kids......

Well,once again a lapse in blogging but never fear i am here lol and am going to try and do it far more regularly,i think it will actually help me to stay on track to be honest. Anyway,my last blog entry was about me starting the cambridge diet,let me just start by saying my lord,how the HELL do these people last on this plan?!!!the results are undeniable and fast too but my god only lasted for a couple of days and i literally felt like i was going crazy,proper chew your own shoes mental, i have never felt such hunger in my life,i thought i have felt hungry before,starving in fact but ohhhhh no!nothing like this. Everyone kept saying once i would get in ketosis the hunger would vanish,that everything would become so much easier,but seriously if you can actually get to that point then congrats to you because i have never felt so depressed and low in all my life,i thought that going on cambridge would enable me to stop thinking about food but the reality is that you actually don't stop thinking about it,every second of every day its on your mind like your some depraved food maniac,and although if you can stick it and get the results you want the amount of people on the actual forums that doing it for a third or fourth time is staggering,sounds like an easy quick fix.it isn't. Anyhow, I'm now back at slimming world for the first time in three weeks having put on 2.5 pounds which i was actually quite pleased with given my break but i have signed up for the charity slim a thon which as I've started a week late is only 5 weeks for me,but as well as helping the children's charity i think knowing that i could be doing some good to them will spur me on,get me back on the straight and narrow :) i also have read a book called run fat bitch run which i must say is a fantastic read!and let me tell you,it certainly gets you out walking/jogging/running and this is coming from someone who the mere thought of jogging gets me in a sweat,I'm even thinking of signing myself up for a run at some point, i have a long way to go in my journey and have only lost about an average of 1 pound a week but each pound is a step closer and i just want to get there now so I'm plowing on with a refreshed energy and am learning that maybe feeling hungry now and then is actually a good thing. Most people think that weightless is just an image thing but its far far from it,its a whole complete change of who you are how you view things how your basically changing the whole person you have become,when your fat people just see you as lazy and greedy and when your anorexic its seen as a sickness which is so unfair,people will never change their opinions on this but we as people can change into who we want to be and by that point who give a fig what anyone else thinks be who you want to be be happy :)